I turned 25 a few months ago, and like an article I read by Christian Gabriel on Huffingtonpost.com, “I imagined that I’d be “rich and successful” by the time I was 25.”
**Know that you’re worth it all throughout the ups & downs.**
Before I continue this post for you, a quick message to Christian Gabriel, “Despite your age, despite the challenges you’ve faced, all I can say to you is to keep on swimming through the flood. I can imagine how annoying it is to hear this again, you, others and myself ask the question, “Why the fuck can’t something just work already?” A little insider joke to help keep my friends and I minds afloat is, “It’s not that you’re not hardworking or that you’re stupid, some people were just born from a wealthy nut-sack.”
Lately, I’ve just been living by, “It is what it is and what will be will be.”
**Build a portfolio for yourself / strengthen the one that you have; always be working and showing; this may be challenging when you have a lot of shit on your mind but re-organize, keep it G, and just do what you have to do….I don’t think you’ll find it anywhere on internet straight forward as that.
(Check out my new portfolio for my photography here & for my music here; keep a body of work to show.**
Often in past Pharrell Williams’ interviews he’d say, “Wealth is in the mind and heart not in the pocket.” I believe in the saying for the most part, but when your stomach is hurting because of the lack of food, it’s hard to agree with it and have it all make sense. At the same time, believing in that statement makes me want to work more at my arts because it’s all that I can do.
“It is what is is and what will be will be.”
Rich and Successful, that all depends on what you call rich, and how you measure your success.
I’m far from being rich; far from being as rich as I’d like to be. Sometimes I wish I had a rich father or grandfather to say, “Okay son, this is what you’re going to do, and this is how you’re going to do it.” and become “successful” at their dream. I know a number of people in that position and for whatever reasons didn’t take it. At times I wonder if it’s all worth it anyway. Then I think about all you can eat stone crab Monday nights at the Trulucks and say fuck yeah it’s worth it!
Without doubt, I’ve lived one hell of a life going into my 25th. Alike Christian, I’m very fortunate to have family and supporters who have and who had my back in the roughest seas. Without those people, my photography, my music, schooling, living would not be possible. I feel blessed, but at the same time, it’s mind bothering not being able to do it all own my own,….if you are a person out there in Internet land feeling this way, be thankful man; just be thankful because shit could be a lot shittier. Be a hustler; hustle hard; be thankful and work to making shit happen. (Take a listen to Maybe and feel a little better….Maybe.)
“ My friends, who are mostly settled in their careers, starting families and taking group vacations, tell me how “smart” I am, how they “don’t understand why someone wouldn’t hire me,” and how I just have to “keep trying and not give up.” It makes me sad to think about how much I became a ghost in my circle of friends in the last few years. Group dinners, vacations, brunches, shopping trips, nights out at bars and clubs just became less and less a part of my existence until most of the time nobody really bothered to try to include me. I never blamed any of my friends for that; you can only decline invitations because you’re literally too poor to participate for so long until people just stop asking. I’m lucky, or perhaps unlucky enough depending on how you look at it, to have some incredibly successful friends who worked really hard and put in the effort to become very well paid in their respective jobs. It’s not so much that you envy your friends’ success or are jealous of them, it’s more that being around people who you consider your peers who all managed to “make it” when you yourself continually stumble and fall makes you question whether you really even belong with that crowd. Being the only fuck up in the room becomes a pretty dark cloud that you’d rather not expose anyone to after a while.
In comparison to many, I’m considerably lucky. I got to live this amazing life surrounded by amazing people for so long, even if most of it was living beyond my means, and even now that I’ve come to point where it’s basically all disappeared, I still am fortunate enough to have family who’s willing to give me a place to stay and feed me. But now, sometimes I honestly don’t know what would’ve been worse, having experienced for so long a life of relative privilege only to have it all fall apart, or never having had the chance in the first place.”
My apologies for the chunk of a quote Christian but reading that, I felt like every bit of it I wrote; word for word. I don’t know if I should call it growing up or what but damn. Just damn.
….I read that quote again and I’m honestly speechless….listen, to the person reading this, if you are feeling down because of your current situation; just know that you’re doing a lot better than the person who decides to do nothing at all. More than that, just do your personal best because it’s all you can do. Something that I need to do more often / started to recently do, is look back at life for a little, step outside of living it, then enjoy the progression. The more I practice this, I feel luck floating in my direction, it’s like being lost at sea, rough weather, then seeing land with sun at your face…..
….I’m sorry I’m checking out.